I'm a Sagittarius with Mars and Mercury on the Ascendant. All I want to do is speak my truth and tell my story.  It’s built into me at an astrological level. It’s in my coding.

My life has never been a normal one.  It began with an isolated, abusive childhood that broke open my psychic skills very early.   I have had out of body experiences and conversations with my guides since I was just a baby. I was so isolated that I didn’t know this wasn’t normal. It was just my reality.

By age 6, I was targeted for a “gifted and talented” program called SOAR which took advantage of my psychic skills and broke me open even more. I believe it also set me up for a lifetime of being used by secret government programs for those same abilities. I was a good little psychic.

By age 10 I was regularly having missing time that I believed were alien abductions, and by the time I was 16 I was having more of these experiences than I would ever wish upon anyone.  I was 100% sure it was real by this point.  It wasn’t subtle. I saw an alien being walking in my front yard in broad daylight, with a friend as a witness.  By this age, it was obvious to me that something truly was happening, even if other people didn’t believe it.

I went to college, got degrees in Music Theory and Astronomy.  I traveled abroad.  I tried to be normal.  I spent a year at an art school and started a career as an artist as soon as I finished school.  I moved in with a wonderful guy (who is still my partner to this day), and things seemed to be going well.

But at age 24, I had an awakening.  I woke up for one morning and it felt like I had been away for an entire lifetime.  Nothing felt right.  Something had happened.  It took me 20 years to figure it out, but I believe I was targeted for a 20-and-back or a similar program.  My health declined immediately.  My mind felt lost and broken.  I was in a lot of pain. And at the same time, somehow my psychic senses had broken open on a whole new level, and I was suddenly 1000x more sensitive, and surrounded by feelings and impressions I had no idea how to interpret.

The next several years were a nightmare.  And that is why I’m writing this blog.  Because I think that a lot of people are going to wake up the way I did.  It was painful for me, largely because I had no idea what was happening.  I hope that in sharing my stories, you can get a little more context for your personal awakening.  I hope that yours will be a little easier than mine was.

All I wanted was to be a hermit on a mountaintop and get away from humanity and figure myself out. I was one of the lucky people in this world who got to do such a thing.  We moved into the woods into an isolated and beautiful spot for 20 years.   We did spiritual work. I meditated relentlessly, did all sorts of mind-expanding experiments, followed the path less followed. I began to have clear contact with some of my guides and to be able to channel my guide Theodore. It took many, many years to get to this point.

We lived as naturally as possible and did everything we could to have true freedom. 10 years in, I still felt like a part of modern society.  15 years in, we had COVID and things changed.  20 years in, and I was a full-on hermit who didn’t find it unusual at all to have a conversation with a tree.  I had finally reached that place I had always wanted to reach.

And that’s exactly when I was kicked out and thrown back into the real world.  Circumstances arranged themselves where the only thing that made sense was to sell our house and leave that life behind.  And now everything in me is telling me, it’s time to come out and tell your story.  Now is the time.

I’m writing a book on what has happened to me. The more I write, the more I find, and the more incredible the story becomes. It just keeps unfolding and unfolding. It’s an ongoing process.

Life is not what we have been told it is. I wouldn’t be confident saying this stuff if I hadn’t had a lifetime of validation. It will sound crazy to some people. That is not who this is for. If this is for you, you will know.